TTC#2 Chart

OK here goes the second month

Here is the comparison with Wilson's chart

Enjoying

I said when we started this journey a few weeks ago that I would try and enjoy it. I am really not sure how? I think after speaking to a few people that it is quite a stressful journey.

To be continued, kids screaming for me....................

Disappionment

Period arrived, rather sad, but hay onto the next month. Caroline thank you for preparing me, it is horrible when your convinced that it will happen!!!
Try and manage next month better.

Update

OK, worry over for today, after the very large temp dip I was very very worried, it actually made me feel sick and depressed. However this morning my temp has gone up, not to as high as I would have like but non the less it has risen. Do not really want to test today because it will be a squinter, want to leave it for tomorrow. I also need to buy some pregnancy tests but they are so expensive.
I can imagine that if this is baby no. 4 it will not get all the special treatments like all the other babies got, like extra £100 scans at 18 weeks to find out the sex and expensive digital pregnancy tests. We just cannot afford it this time round.

My Milky Filter Coffee

Now there is one thing that gets me through the day, well get's me started in the mornings and that is my amazing Filter coffee. It has to be done a special way, 5 scoops, yes 5 scoops of filter coffee, strength of 5 or even 6. yes extremely strong. This has to be added to half a cup of hot milk with 2 sugar's. Sometimes I even rock the boat and have 2 cups.
If my hubby doesn't get this done within 10 minutes of me getting up I can be just horrible.
Now, for the last three mornings the smell of coffee has be fine but gradually the taste of it has been horrible. I have persevered thinking I am imagining it but this morning I cannot even drink it.

Implantation Dip or Period Due?

Gosh, I feel really sick with worry, so convinced that I was pregnant I have had a really low temp. Dip. This could mean only 2 things, 1. Period is due today or, 2. Implantation dip. I was really worried I actually wanted to go back to bed. No sign of my period so fingers crossed that is doesn't arrive and my tenmps. go back up.

Update

Period based on my last cycle of 24 days is due today, however based on my ovulation date I have another 4 days to go.
Things are looking up but I must not get complacent. Hubby Ben says I am definably pregnant I have turned into the wicked Witch. Still losing weight about lbs a day. No hungry and feel sickly all the time.
Only time will tell. My temps are high but I have not seen an implantation dip yet!

Beware

The horrible, irritated, irrational woman is back!!! My poor Husband and children.
Girl Talk Blog:
"So pregnancy is supposed to be the most exciting time of your life, right? Yet, you are going bonkers. The train is late, the new office chair you ordered won’t be delivered on time, you just ran out of cereal and the deli is closed. This is so cataclysmic that you are seriously considering throwing yourself off a bridge here and now, because how can you possibly bring a child into such an inefficient world?! And furthermore, how will you even cope with a baby, when your husband has to physically restrain you from assaulting the clerk at Gap because they just ran out of your size in maternity jeans?
Some women sail through their pregnancies with nary a misfiring neuron, but if you have ever felt the churning anger that splashes the backs of your eyes and temporarily blinds you, or the black futility of depression, where the mere thought of rising from your bed fills you with horror, then you know what it feels like to be hormonal".
Click here to read more: http://www.thefrisky.com/2010-11-03/girl-talk-lets-be-real-pregnancy-hormones-will-drive-you-mad/

Thought of the Day

Oh no, I must be bonkers, mad, insane, not with it. I am asking myself, "why do I want another child", do I not have enough on my plate as it is. I am tired everyday, all day. No sleep in the evenings, no bed in fact to myself. Thom and Jesi seem to be piling in our bed every night at the moment. I have just ran myself a nice hot bath but Wilson has woke from his day time sleep.

It get's worst, by the way I promise to write about great days I have had and what a joy it is to have lots of children, because it is just the most amazing thing to watch them nurture and grow.

Oh and my hubby Ben had just got rid of that hormonal person who live in the house growing babes, why would he want her back!!!!
I already feel like my hormones are going crazy again!!

I can only put it down to mother nature calling and I have very strong urge to have a child plus that fact that I just adore babies, children cannot comment of older children or teenagers yet maybe that is another book entirely.

At the moment, Wilson is wingy crying for attention, Thomas is badly constipated toddling around the house trying not to let the big large sleeping poo out. And Jesi well she is complaining about noise and saying it hurts her ears. So today not a good day but these re far and few between. So please do not be put off. I want this book to be as honest as an honest person can be. yes People who know me say I am way to honest, even for my own good.

Can you imagine 4 children under 4, does that not equals madness? Will people look at me with disgust, some people already walk past me saying "gosh you poor thing, you have got your hands full", ummm what will they say when they see 4. Oh my goodness, What if it is more than one baby what then, run away!!!

Freaked out

Ok Daddy Ben said goodbye good bye to everyone and then said goodbye to my belly......aarrgghhhhhh

Early Pregnancy Symtpons

According to the following website called 2 week wait "http://www.twoweekwait.com/" you can have signs as early as conception, now for some people they really are not that bothered. However, for people like me, and I am rather an obsessive person, this is really important. Now I maybe being rather premature here starting my own early pregnancy symptoms but here goes.
DPO means day after ovulation this is called the Luteal Phase and in general this should be 10 - 14 days, ideally 14 days. People with a phase shorter than 10 days may not be able to support the implanting egg.

Ovulation
1DPO - Tighting in my womb felt really strange, cramping all day!
2DPO - Veins come up on boobs, bleeding gums
3DPO - Really Sick, travelling in car and it was bad, My perfume smells horrible, Very low dip in temps on chart, could this account for feeling really sick. Sore throat & runny nose
4DPO - Really Sick, thought I was going to puck, bit shaky, My perfume smells horrible. Sore throat & runny nose
5DPO - Brown Pigmentation on face (got this with all pregnancies)Sicky feeling in the morning but nothing else, lost 4lbs in 3 days. Sore throat & runny nose
6DPO - Brown Pigmentation on face. Coffee smelt weird today, rather sicky feeling in the bottom of my belly. Feel really hot. Veins on boobs, getting tingling in boobs but nothing major. Sore throat & runny nose, Dizzy, sickness, gone off food totally. **Milk leaking from boobes**
7DPO - My lovely morning coffee taste horrible so upset!!! I am so irritated aarrgghhhhh. cramps. Temps high. Lost more weight. Very sore boobies.
8DPO - Brown Pigmentation on face, Dizzy, Runny bum lol, sicky feeling, not hungry. Cramps last night
9DPO - Not much really not hungry, strong sense of smell and really snappy and grumpy. Period due today and not arrived.
10DPO - Just horrible I feel depressed, sad, tearful grumpy. Gone of my coffee and feel a bit sicky.
11DPO
12DPO
13DPO
14DPO

Research suggests that is takes about 5 - 7 days to travel down from the ovaries into the womb for implantation. In my previous pregnancy this kinda happens about DPO10 and this is why a pregnancy test can show as a positive BFP!!

Wilson's Pregnancy Chart

This was my pregnancy Chart with Wilson
Purple is Wilson
Turquoise is this month
Green is no pregnant month

This was also my pregnancy Test - Blue and OPK - Green test on day 10 of Wilson's pregnancy. They say that when your pregnant you will also get a very very strong positive on an OPK too. You can hardly see the line on the pregnancy one it is so so so faint.

My Fertility Friend Chart

This is my chart this month. It does indeed look as though I have ovulated on day 15, lets just hope my temps stay up which will mean that I could be pregnant. They do need to stay high past 28 days. One good sign to look out for is an implantation dip around day 10 but this could also be a sign of my period coming as my cycle last month was only 25 days. Who can tell.
Ok this morning (Wednesday my temps. has gone up again, this does look promising but my sleep pattern is all over the place and i wonder if it is giving me false high temps.
If I compare to Wilson's pregnancy it definalty suggests that I am indeed pregnant as the non pregnant month temps were lower. This is driving me crazy. I have got at least another 8 days really before I will know. Not sure I can put myself through the stress of testing on day 10 when the egg implants like I did with Wilson. As you can tell from the pregnancy tests you could hardly see a line, you really had to look.
This baby making journey I find the most stressful in all my life, not really enjoying fourth time round. I know what to expect and it does make you go mental.
I am hoping that I will count my lucky stars and even god that it will happen quickly and not like Thomas (2 years). It's funny I really wanted to put some sense of humour into this book, but this part doesn't seem very ideal to start being funny, well I don't feel very funny.

My Ovulation Chart

Such bad car Sickness

Oh y goodness, we went on a family trip yesterday to the beach and my car sickness was so so so bad. Really I wanted Ben to stop the car. I do get car sick on occasions but never this bad. Surely, can I be? My FF Chart yesterday took of my cross hairs because I had such a low temp. but this morning I had a high temp and it put them back again. Saying that I ovulated day after Valentines day! Well this morning I feel so so so sick, thought it might be the 400mg of Vit. B6 because of my short Luteal Phase last month but I took them yesterday and wasn't sick. Oh goodness me, this is driving me crazy, was out last night I someone said you look really tired are you ok? Ummm I am exhausted, I know the kids have been in my (sorry our) bed all night all week but that has never made me this tired?
Ok, only time will tell and hopefully we should find out about Sunday, if not about Tuesday. Wish me luck. Someone did say to me that a life changing thing would happen on the 17th Feb!

Kellie Wellie.

Hi my Beautiful Friend, I hope this blog find you well. Please do not be too shocked it might not happen for a while. message me and tell me what you think? Love you so much Hun big hugs. xxx

Jools Oliver pregnant with her fourth Child.

So excited I didnt realized Jools was expecting her fourth.
http://www.hellomagazine.com/celebrities/201006243753/jools-oliver/pregnant/baby/

Short Luteal Phase

Came across this very informative and helpful blog site.
http://www.myshortlutealphase.com/

Ovulation & Luteal Phase

OK, this morning how excited am I, yippee my  temperature  is still raising which could mean only one thing, I have ovulated. So I rush down stair after taking my temperature 36.6 and turn the PC on to into the data into FF. And just as I though it gives me Cross Hairs meaning I ovulated the day after valentines day. Great this is potential great news, however this also make my Luteal Phase only 10 days if I base it on my cycle last month which was only 24 days. You cannot hold a pregnancy on a phase less than 14 days. How sad do I feel. Well miracles can happen but this is exactly what happened the month before I got pregnant with Wilson. OK only time will tell I will continue to take my temperature and see if my period arrives next Saturday.
Sunday morning, entered my temp. and FF has taken Ovulation away. My chart looks as though I am not ovulating. I am so worried that the Depo injection only for 3 months has messed with my cycles. It may take up to 2 years to get back to normal. I am so sad.

Book Content Plan

Introduction
Prologue
Introduction to my Family
Getting Pregnant for the fourth Time
The first Trimester
The second Trimester
The third Trimester
Get Organised *****
Labour & Delivery
Breastfeeding or bottle
Newborn & Toddlers first 6 months
Relationship with Husband
Relationships with other Mums
About Me; Mid-life Crisis, Identity Crisis, Giving up a Promising Career
Epilogue
Appendices
References
Guides
Charts
Resources: Books, Blogs and Websites

Inspiration - Jools Oliver Book Minus Nine to One

This is the book I read when I was pregnant for the first time, it is an amazing and honest book about the nine months of pregnancy! But when it come to my second and third pregnancy I couldn't found any such book.

Worst Things about Being Pregnant by Acquired Taste

http://acquiredtaste.wordpress.com/2011/04/05/top-ten-pregnancy/

Top 10 Things Every Pregnant Woman Should Knowby Paula Ford-Martin

Top 10 Things Every Pregnant Woman Should Knowby Paula Ford-Martin
Here are 10 things that every pregnant woman should know:
1. Morning sickness doesn't just happen in the morning.
2. Trust your instincts — what worked for your neighbor, friend, or sister isn't necessarily what's right for you.
3. A birth plan can help you and your partner work toward the labor and delivery experience you want.
4. Things don't always go according to plan, but being prepared for the possibilities can make the detours easier to handle.
5. Taking 400 micrograms of folic acid before and in early pregnancy can dramatically reduce your risk of having a baby with neural tube defects.
6. A due date is a suggestion, not a contractual obligation.
7. Career and family are not mutually exclusive.
8. Federal legislation provides specific protections against pregnancy discrimination in the workplace.
9. Alcohol and tobacco in any amount in pregnancy can have serious health repercussions for your baby.
10. Stress can be hard on the health of you and your baby; make sure you have a support system for both pregnancy and new motherhood.

I will elaborate on this in the next nine months and add my personal experience on each of these subjects.

Diary Entry - Friday 17th Feb 2012

Feeling really good at the moment, life seems surprisingly easy with three toddlers running around. Admittedly this week has been a complete nightmare as it is indeed half term (nothing is ever on) and the children seem rather under the weather. Thomas had Slap Cheek but didn't seem bother by it at all. He was still running around the house like a headless chicken all day! Valentines day has come and go for another year, we celebrated it twice, once on the Saturday before and then on the actual day. And, shockingly, we managed to get some adult time in. Three course meal and afters if you know what I mean. This is the reason why this whole book has come about. The last thing I expected was my husband not to use protection, therefore giving me hope of another child yes a 4th Child that is assuming I fall pregnant with only one child.

I am not sure whether I am fertile, whether I am ovulating I will not know for another week or so, such along wait. It is doing my head in, I have only been charting for 2 months this time and I have no evidence of previous ovulation. I did go on the awful depo injection for three months back in the summer as I was convinced Ben would not let me have any more children secretly I didn't even think I could manage with the three I have let alone a fourth.

I did find myself eating Chinese noodles at 9am the other day. I was also put off my eating mushroom on Valentines day in the Buttered curry I had made. Umm interesting am I. However my fertility Friend Chart doesn't show ovulation. AArrgghhh my head is totally mess up. I should start a chart and write down all my symptoms just in case I am in fact very pregnant this month. That would be just amazing wouldn't it!

How to write a book.

http://lifelearningtoday.com/2007/05/21/how-to-write-a-book-in-60-days-or-less/

Book Content & Layout

I am going to need to do a lot of researched on how to layout my book and it's content. Here is my first website I have stumbled upon. http://www.asiteaboutnothing.net/c_indesign.html
Strangely enough I have a bible and it's layout is perfect. I want a book that provides me with my 9 months journey of the pregnancy and living with the kids oh and not forgetting my hubby Ben. Also I want part 2 of the book to be about certain aspects and issues you as a parent face with your little one(s) and with the pregnancy.
Part 3 will be a reference guide in the back of the book which will point you to different areas of the book which discuss things you want to look up, for example: What happens when your children are ill with a virus or chick-pox will it affect your pregnancy.

Poorly Children

Sometimes it is really hard to know whether your child is poorly or just playing up. Toddlers do after all require your attention all the time, winge, moan and cry and you do not know why. I always find that after I have had a week of grizzly children they come out in a rash or become ill. Then I realise they have been ill all week but just didn't register in my allready overloaded baby brain not realise. Toddlers will be running around all day long even when they are ill.

Discussions with Hubby Ben about another child.

Ok, truthfully my husband says to me I was lucky to get Wilson (he was a bonus). Shall I be honest and frank, my husband is eaiserly swayed, not sure if this is because deep down in his heart he really does want lots of children or I starve him of affection so when he does get it and I said no to raincoats he cannot resist. We do have discussion and say, if money was not an issue we would have a football team. We adore our children we just do not adore the sleepless night we have experience over the last four years

Friday - Fertility Friend

Getting very excited. I wake up every morning and I take my temperature as I am charting to see when I ovulate. I did this with Wilson. Very stressful and obsessive. This really is not good for someone like me, who is quite an obsessive person anyway, I am trying to tell myself to enjoy this stressful part of the journey as it will be my last.
I use Fertility Friend which is great, you do have to pay for it. http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ttc/ but it is worth it if it is your sort of thing. I will go into how the website works at a later date but if I am correct I may be ovulating right at this moment or may have already on day 11, I am unsure as I only started to temp half way through.

The Book Itself

Now as any busy yummy mummy knows, life with children whether one, two three or even more years will know we never have any time to ourselves and the onlty way I could figure out how to write a book was to do it by writing regularly along the 9 months. My husband Ben came up with an excellent idea by writing in a blog. By doing it like this I could write hopefully at least 2-3 times a week and by the end of the journey I will have all the material I need for the book. Good in theory I wonder how it will work in practice. Well this is my first few pages right here.

The beginnings of my new Yummy Pregnant Mummy and Beautiful Children Book

I have always wanted to write a book, I just never thought it would be about children especially my our own children. I cannot tell you how excited I am  and how this opportunity has arisen for me to start doing so!
My plan is to write this book over a period of well about nine months. Yes you may have guessed it, the book is about a pregnancy. That is if I can get pregnant for the 4th time. Now if in the future I am successful in writing and actually publishing this book you will come across this book because you will be in a similar situation and want to read about what the future holds for you. I unforetunalty didn't have to resource available to me. and this is way |I am writing. I want to provide a very honest and vivid account of what life is and will be like for you when you reach this point in your life. Pregnant with babies, toddler or older children in toe!

I want to write about my journey into my 4th pregnancy and what it will be like to have three children under 4 too to look after. From deciding to have another child, pregnancy and how I as the mummy and the children oh and not forgetting my hubby will cope along the way!